The more we see our own flaws and sins, the more precious, electrifying, and amazing God's grace appears to us." -Timothy Keller
In my bible study we're going through this book, "Gospel in Life" by Tim Keller, its really awesome and this past lesson was on grace. The message was- sit back, release, surrender and allow the most amazing gift ever bless you and radically change your life...Why have I never given grace much thought? Why do I think my control and anxiety is better suited for life's troubles then God's grace?
I was challenged last weekend when a friend said, "do you think the blood of Christ is big enough to cover your sin?" Woah- straight to my face, her boldness exposed my sin...I had to really evaluate, and that's when I realized that I had no understanding of grace, forgiveness and rest.
Tim Keller encourages the readers to repent of specific sin patterns in our lives and ask the Lord to wash His grace over us, to help allow the Gospel to change us, to renew our minds and change our day to day living...ultimately change our hearts.
My deep desire is to feel at home and comfortable with myself....sounds kind of strange. But no matter where I am in the world, no matter what is falling apart in my life or the lives of others- I want to be secure ultimately in Christ and in myself. I'm freaking frustrated to be honest...This battle of identity and low self worth has ruled my life forever. God has recently exposed this sin in my heart and its been a painful and long process of weeding out these lies. Before I wrote this post I had a mini breakdown of frustrated tears- and the Lord gently whispered...."You're not alone. You are safe with me. I love you, my grace covers you."
Even in my temper-tantrums, even in my weakness, fear, anger, disappointments, day to day life- God's grace is over me. It covers me and wraps around me tight, it speaks truth into my emotional and chaotic moments.
God's love is there in every moment- giving grace to our brokenness. Thank you Lord.
