I want more.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7NlJr6TE7b4&feature=player_embedded

I encourage you guys to listen to this while you read my simple thoughts...

I was at the prayer house tonight and I was just thinking about how I've lived my life....scared. Fearful of what I lack...fearful of what I could be. So this is me, stuck in this weird, awkward place where there is no movement. I think a lot of us are like that- we love God, but we're scared.

I was thinking about my heart and how my fear derives from my orphan mentality.  I think we all in a way have an orphan mentality- the fact if we have a biological father on this earth or not is not the point.  I was thinking about my fears of not being protected or guarded, my fears of being exposed- not taken care of.   Not seen as valuable or precious, treasured, or nurtured. We all have our orphan-like thoughts.

I read this in ephesians:

"For he CHOSE US in him before the creation of the world to be HOLY and BLAMELESS in his sight.  In love he predestined us to be ADOPTED as his sons(and daughters) through Jesus Christ, in accordance with his pleasure and will- to the praise of his glorious grace, which he has FREELY given us in the One he loves.  In him we have REPDEMPTION through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God's grace that he lavished on us with all wisdom and understanding." Ephesians 1:4-8

In my Women's Studies class we are giving Identity Projects where we are required to stand in front of the class and talk about who we are....(mine is on Friday, I will post the video here on Friday!)

One of my classmates got up and talked about how he was shuffled through foster care for his entire childhood and how he never felt wanted.... my heart broke for this guy but at the same time it rejoiced that we are no longer desperate orphans who are seeking to fill their voids with anything of this world.  We are filled by the blood of Jesus! God has adopted us, we are not in foster care being tossed from adult to adult....we are chosen.  We are taken in.  We are His. Accept his grace, his mercy....accept his adoption.