wow...

So I'm laying in bed, just talking to God and having a real conversation and it started out like this....
me: "God you see my heart and you know my desires, I desire a relationship and intimacy with a man...a partner who loves me and wants me."
God: "I know my child be patient..."
And the conversation went on....but then I was talking about how I constantly feel that when I'm attracted to a guy, they're typically attracted to someone else.  My track record in high school isn't too great and now I'm struggling with that...yet again.
I was about to say to God, "I feel like Julia Roberts in my best friend's wedding....I'm chasing after the person who is chasing after their love and no one is chasing me."
and God totally said- Don't you think thats how I always am?
wow.
God is constantly pursuing us, even when we are chasing after things that aren't gratifying, redeeming, or satisfying like His love.
But unlike me or Julia Roberts....God doesn't give up.  He doesn't stop and say well he's just not right, I'll move on.  He pursues us and captures our hearts.
What a wonderful revelation, full of perspective about relationships and the intimacy we can have from our relationship with God.